[His eyes flicker to Ronan, though he doesn't stop walking and he certainly doesn't let go of Ronan's hand. He's thought about bringing up the subject before - how if they're moving anyway, it might make sense for them to share a room. He'd thought about it sometimes even before they began to discuss moving, once Ronan was spending most nights in his room anyway.
Adam wasn't sure at first. He likes having his space, and while he liked having Ronan with him too, he worried that it would end up feeling cramped. Like he didn't have anything of his own, his own space. But they've been staying together for months now, and though Ronan may not have formally moved in, he occupies Adam's space almost as if he did.
And it doesn't feel cramped. Adam doesn't feel like he's being squeezed out of his own space. Ronan takes up more space than him, physically and in every other way, but it doesn't make him feel like he doesn't belong there. Instead it's just a strange kind of comfort, the knowledge that he's not alone. Adam's made enough of a mark that it still feels like his space, but it doesn't feel like it needs to be his alone.
He doesn't mind being alone sometimes. He's pretty good at being alone. But it's better when Ronan is there. He's happier, he feels more comfortable. He feels safer. He's not lonely when he wakes up in the middle of the night, when he can just roll over and press against the warm bulk of Ronan's body.]
Yeah? I mean, he had a point.
[Ronan doesn't always stay with him, but these days it's more often than not. More than that, Adam misses him a little when he's not there. He ignores it, because that's incredibly stupid when Ronan's just in the next room, but it's there. If it could be like that all the time... well, he doesn't think he'd have anything to complain about. Not even the strange things Ronan dreams up sometimes, not even getting woken up in the middle of the night by Ronan climbing into bed with him.
He doesn't mind now. He doesn't think he ever really will, though he might give Ronan a hard time about it sometimes.]
When we move, maybe we could pick a room together. To share.
[It sounds disgustingly domestic when he says it like that, but even so, he feels warm.]
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Adam wasn't sure at first. He likes having his space, and while he liked having Ronan with him too, he worried that it would end up feeling cramped. Like he didn't have anything of his own, his own space. But they've been staying together for months now, and though Ronan may not have formally moved in, he occupies Adam's space almost as if he did.
And it doesn't feel cramped. Adam doesn't feel like he's being squeezed out of his own space. Ronan takes up more space than him, physically and in every other way, but it doesn't make him feel like he doesn't belong there. Instead it's just a strange kind of comfort, the knowledge that he's not alone. Adam's made enough of a mark that it still feels like his space, but it doesn't feel like it needs to be his alone.
He doesn't mind being alone sometimes. He's pretty good at being alone. But it's better when Ronan is there. He's happier, he feels more comfortable. He feels safer. He's not lonely when he wakes up in the middle of the night, when he can just roll over and press against the warm bulk of Ronan's body.]
Yeah? I mean, he had a point.
[Ronan doesn't always stay with him, but these days it's more often than not. More than that, Adam misses him a little when he's not there. He ignores it, because that's incredibly stupid when Ronan's just in the next room, but it's there. If it could be like that all the time... well, he doesn't think he'd have anything to complain about. Not even the strange things Ronan dreams up sometimes, not even getting woken up in the middle of the night by Ronan climbing into bed with him.
He doesn't mind now. He doesn't think he ever really will, though he might give Ronan a hard time about it sometimes.]
When we move, maybe we could pick a room together. To share.
[It sounds disgustingly domestic when he says it like that, but even so, he feels warm.]