[He laughs at the thought of that, easy and warm. It does feel so easy with Ronan's hand in his like this, Ronan's casual agreement matched with the tightening of his fingers. Like they could do anything. It's not a surprise that Ronan agreed, not when it was practically his idea in the first place, but it makes Adam happy even so.
He thinks, sometimes, about how he never really imagined he could have something like this. Oh, he wanted it, sometimes. He wanted someone who would care for him, would love him and be by his side, but he never really knew what that would look like. What role models did he have, besides movies, and Adam has always been too smart to think they're anything like real life.
So maybe he wanted something like that, but it was never something he imagined. Never something he could think of as important, really, not in the face of his future and everything he needed to do to get there. Not in the face of survival, which everything else had to come second to.
But now he has it, and now he knows what it looks like. What it feels like. He's still learning, he still has a long way to go, he's still afraid he'll mess it up. But he feels it, it's his, this thing that he and Ronan have. He doesn't think he's ever been happier than when they're together, senselessly and quietly happy.]
Figures your idea of moving in together would involve property damage.
[He looks at Ronan then, looks around them, and tugs him to a gentle stop. They're alone.]
Hey.
[This feels like it should be harder. He's thought about it so often, played it out in his mind, taken it apart and put it back together. He thought it would be difficult when it happened, he'd have to build up to it, work carefully around to what he needs to say. Find the perfect setting, the perfect time, the perfect moment.
It's not hard at all. It's easy, and his voice is steady when he says it.]
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He thinks, sometimes, about how he never really imagined he could have something like this. Oh, he wanted it, sometimes. He wanted someone who would care for him, would love him and be by his side, but he never really knew what that would look like. What role models did he have, besides movies, and Adam has always been too smart to think they're anything like real life.
So maybe he wanted something like that, but it was never something he imagined. Never something he could think of as important, really, not in the face of his future and everything he needed to do to get there. Not in the face of survival, which everything else had to come second to.
But now he has it, and now he knows what it looks like. What it feels like. He's still learning, he still has a long way to go, he's still afraid he'll mess it up. But he feels it, it's his, this thing that he and Ronan have. He doesn't think he's ever been happier than when they're together, senselessly and quietly happy.]
Figures your idea of moving in together would involve property damage.
[He looks at Ronan then, looks around them, and tugs him to a gentle stop. They're alone.]
Hey.
[This feels like it should be harder. He's thought about it so often, played it out in his mind, taken it apart and put it back together. He thought it would be difficult when it happened, he'd have to build up to it, work carefully around to what he needs to say. Find the perfect setting, the perfect time, the perfect moment.
It's not hard at all. It's easy, and his voice is steady when he says it.]
I love you.