[He's surprised, but - not at all in a bad way. He wraps his legs around Ronan's waist, his arms around Ronan's shoulders, holding on to him and steadying himself. He can't keep from smiling, and though he should probably protest - should probably point out that they're in public, anyone could walk by - he has no desire to do so.
He lets his head fall back instead, giving Ronan better access to his neck. It's encouragement, which is entirely the opposite of what he should do, but what does it matter? He wants Ronan more than anything, he loves Ronan, and it's only too clear that his belated confession has pleased Ronan.
He really should have known it a long time ago. It's not quite like Gansey said, so long ago - Ronan makes him quiet sometimes, it's true. Ronan calms the thoughts running through his head, provides a beautiful distraction that leaves him senselessly happy and nearly unable to think things to bits, the way he usually does. But it's more than that. Ronan makes the world feel brighter, makes things feel more real. He makes Adam feel more alive.
Contentment was always a far-off thing for him, happiness even more so, but now he's content every time he sees Ronan at the clinic, taking up space, watching him. He's happy every time they kiss in the kitchen when no one else is around. It's never been easy before, but it is now.]
I think I'm the one who's got you.
[He runs the fingers of one hand up the back of Ronan's neck, through the short bristles of his hair. Having Ronan this close is intoxicating, incredibly distracting, no matter how many times it happens. He doesn't think he'll ever get enough of it. It makes him want more, it always does, and it makes him forget his caution. He moves his other hand now too, and though he can't reach much from the position he's in, he does manage to slide slim fingers under Ronan's jacket, then his shirt, brushing over the smooth skin of his lower back.]
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He lets his head fall back instead, giving Ronan better access to his neck. It's encouragement, which is entirely the opposite of what he should do, but what does it matter? He wants Ronan more than anything, he loves Ronan, and it's only too clear that his belated confession has pleased Ronan.
He really should have known it a long time ago. It's not quite like Gansey said, so long ago - Ronan makes him quiet sometimes, it's true. Ronan calms the thoughts running through his head, provides a beautiful distraction that leaves him senselessly happy and nearly unable to think things to bits, the way he usually does. But it's more than that. Ronan makes the world feel brighter, makes things feel more real. He makes Adam feel more alive.
Contentment was always a far-off thing for him, happiness even more so, but now he's content every time he sees Ronan at the clinic, taking up space, watching him. He's happy every time they kiss in the kitchen when no one else is around. It's never been easy before, but it is now.]
I think I'm the one who's got you.
[He runs the fingers of one hand up the back of Ronan's neck, through the short bristles of his hair. Having Ronan this close is intoxicating, incredibly distracting, no matter how many times it happens. He doesn't think he'll ever get enough of it. It makes him want more, it always does, and it makes him forget his caution. He moves his other hand now too, and though he can't reach much from the position he's in, he does manage to slide slim fingers under Ronan's jacket, then his shirt, brushing over the smooth skin of his lower back.]